Spy Wednesday
As a kid, I thought this had something to do with espionage, finally something exciting in the church!
Of course, it comes from the old English word spied. “Judas Iscariot spied for an opportunity to betray Jesus.” In other words, he looked for an opportunity.
The other day I was thinking Judas betrayed Jesus on Wednesday, and then on Thursday evening, when Jesus is brought to the house of the high priest, Peter will betray him too! On reflection, however, I realized I was too harsh on Peter.
Judas betrayed Jesus; Peter denied him. For me, the difference is that out of weakness and fear, Peter, in the moment, didn’t do the right thing. He didn’t have the courage to stand up for Christ, to be loyal to Jesus.
Judas, however, actively sought to do something wrong! He looked to betray Jesus. I think there’s a real difference in the degree of culpability. I believe there is a huge difference between a sin of weakness, of the moment, and a sin, a choice that is carefully planned.
The Gospel says better for that man if he had never been born, and some have gone through theological gymnastics trying to work out why God would create someone if it were better that he’d never been born!
I don’t think Judas was ever destined to betray Jesus, I think he had a free choice, he had free will, and he made the wrong choice. I don’t think any of us are slaves to fate, destined to be condemned.
I don’t think Judas was damned before he was created, indeed, if the good thief could be forgiven. If Peter his number one disciple could be forgiven, then surely even Judas could have been forgiven. If only he would have accepted Christ forgiveness, but he didn’t; he despaired of his sin and took his own life.
In my life as a priest, I’ve met some people who are so convinced that their sin is so serious, so awful that they’re incapable of receiving forgiveness.
God‘s forgiveness is always far greater than our sin. He came not to condemn us but to set us free.
This week let us acknowledge the times when we have failed to do the right thing out of weakness or lack of courage or loyalty to Christ, but let us also recognize that shamefully we have also deliberately chosen to do what is wrong. Let us acknowledge our guilt, and receive the forgiveness of the one who gives his life for us.
Please pray the prayer below with me.
Love and Blessings,
Fr Damian
I confess to almighty God, and to you, my brothers and sisters, that I have sinned through my own fault, in my thoughts and in my words, in what I have done, and in what I have failed to do; and I ask blessed Mary, ever virgin, all the angels and saints, and you, my brothers and sisters, to pray for me to the Lord our God.